words...inspiration....healing balm....

I know the one in whom I trust, and I am sure that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him. 2 Timothy 1:12 NLT

Sweet Jesus, I'm waiting. I'm here on bended knee.
I need you, to heal me. Please come and set me free.
Reaching out, I touch the nails...see your side...it was bleeding for me!
My words...only fail...'till I cry...with my whole being...
Forgive me. "The Confession" Dave Miller

My Lord and Savior,
you see my tears, you feel my pains, you know my greatest joys and victories...you were there for every moment, you never leave me. Your word does not return to you void.
Bless this day and prove yourself strong and faithful over again. I love you Father, and I know the plans you have for me are to prosper and not harm me and I thank you for them.
Grow me this day, stretch me and mold me....make me the woman you designed me to be. Remind me of the words you've given me and sustain me. I praise your wonderful Name forever,
Amen

This has been a trying month for me...somewhat of a roller coaster....
Last night I had the privilege of sitting under Pastor James McDonald. He taught from Acts 12...about how God is in control even when....
and the two that stuck with me were: when my faith is weak and when it looks like my enemy is winning....it was kind of funny....he asked if we are ever like "GOD!! Get him!!!" and as I laughed I admitted, yes....I do that...."but God!! why are you letting them be blessed! they are BAD!!" "But God!! I pray, I tithe, I read my Bible! Why haven't you answered each and every one of my demands!!"

Could be because I didn't leave them on the altar when I walked away...maybe it's because I would love to think I trusted him enough....but at the heart of it...I held on to my backup plans....

So today, my task/mission/quest...thing.... is to die to self, to take my hands off..."look God, no hands!" and let him work 'cause let's face it....He's a lot better at this stuff than I am.

I close with this:

Put God in charge of your work, then what you've planned will take place....We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live." Proverbs 16:3,9 MSG