Thursday, April 22, 2010

pensive today.

Missing my brother a lot lately.
It seems like there's triggers everywhere lately...some make me smile, others make me laugh....and then there's the ones that hurt so bad I have to check to make sure I'm not bleeding. Those are the exhausting ones.
Today I feel pensive, reflective and a little sad. I think about the things he's missing out on....he didn't see me get married...I know he would have been so happy for me and probably would have asked if my dress was big enough (there was a lot of poof to it once the train was bustled). He would have teased me about tripping down the aisle...but then he would have watched with a huge grin as I promised to love honor and cherish all the days of my life.

Yesterday I brought up you tube during my lunch and break....I played "Come Ye Sinners" several times.... We had a dear friend play some praise music during our wedding...that was one of the songs he played. The words to it are a balm to my soul on those days when everything hurts.....from missing my brother....to a hard day at work....to the trials that show up and smack us around....

I won't post the whole song...I really like Todd Agnew's version of it - but the chorus goes "I will arise and go to Jesus....and He will embrace me in his arms....and in the arms of my dear Savior, oh there are 10,000 charms..."

There's another line to the song that says "if you tarry until you're better, then you will never come at all...." That one got me yesterday. God is our great comforter....he supplies all of our needs....He's unfailing....but if I wait to go talk to him until I'm doing better...I'm never going to get there.... so...I'm going to arise and go to Jesus and be embraced by the love of his everlasting arms.

Monday, April 19, 2010

A case of the "Mondays"

what is it about Monday morning that is just purely exhausting? It doesn't seem to matter when I go to bed or how much rest I get on the weekend....Monday is just downright tiring.

Hrm. it's a mystery.

So things are good in our world...had some great time with the fam at a dinner....went to a birthday party for one of the nieces.....tried to declutter and start packing....wondered where on earth we'll end up moving....

That's the part that's got me all worked up...trying not to stress but it's really not working...

not much of an update today...blame it on Monday....LOL

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Reflections

I remember watching a comedian....Jim Gafigan...terribly funny guy. Well, he was talking about Easter (many of his bits feature him doing both parts of the conversation)....and I won't get this exactly right, but here's the gist:
"Ok to celebrate Easter. We'll get a bunch of eggs.
but that doesn't make any sense
Ok. We'll hide them?
and this relates to the resurrection of Christ how?
It's ok - there's a bunny."

yeah, I laughed. But today it's got me thinking....how commercial things have gotten. I can remember when not a child around me didn't know that Easter was a celebration of Christ's Resurrection and everyone went to church and most girls got a new Easter dress and some little hats with matching purses and we'd go to church and hear for the millionth time the miracle and we'd sit in awe.

Today I look around and most kids haven't the foggiest idea what an Easter bonnet is or why on earth someone would want to go to church instead of diving into piles of candy....and while it is very well known that I am a huge proponent of eating much candy....the rest of it makes me sad. It's bad enough that the true meaning is lost....but it's also a crucial part of our heritage that's being skewed into a sugar coated commercialistic whatever you want to call it.
And that's my rant for the day.

We finally got our tax return and the laptop we've been talking about for two years and it's an adventure typing on it.....not only is it a "standard" keyboard (the one I have at work is ergonomic), I also have to get used to the heat sensitive mouse thingy that keeps moving my cursor when I get close to it....LOL
Hopefully this means that we'll find the cable to our camera and upload the pictures that have been sitting there since our honeymoon. Hrm. anyone interested in a slide show of a bunch of islands?

Thursday, April 01, 2010

April Fool's Day

The fool says in his heart, "There is no God." Psalm 14:1-3

Driving to work I listened to my favorite Christian station - their April fool was to say that Jim Kelly came out of retirement. I chuckled a bit and thought of some of the April fool's pranks I've pulled over the years and contemplated tossing one or two out there today...but nothing came to mind. Ah well. such is life.

In other news....
My cousin welcomed her son into the world yesterday - 8 pounds, 7 ounces and all are doing great. This is a major praise because she started going into labor with him at around 20 weeks....they tried to stop it and finally did...to the point where she was induced yesterday! But we are praising God for a healthy baby and a healthy mama and for expanding this little family by one more.

My N brother sent a text a few weeks ago..."we're 3% sure it's a boy. Or....we're 97% sure it's a girl." Silly boy, but it brightened my day. Very excited for those two! Plus another baby to cuddle and kiss and hand back :)

I go back for another follow-up on Tuesday....the new med has been ok but often it burns when I get hungry and something tells me that shouldn't so much happen.....so we'll just talk to the doc and see what we have to do next because grazing all day hasn't been great for the whole losing weight portion of my goals.

Bug is doing well - work is crazy as usual, but it's work!!!

and now you're up to date!